you're my only one...
12/06/2009 06:45:00 PM
you're my only one...
you're my only one...
you're my only one...
you're my only one...
you're my only one...
you're my only one...
Monday, August 24, 2009
Today was table tennis competition. It was so fun. You have no idea how many times I prayed to God about having the right uniform on and having fun. I full had to wake up like at 6:30. That means that I had 6 hours sleep. Anyways I arrived pretty early and guess what ? I was like the third one there. And wanna know something else ? We had to arrive at school at 7:30 and we left school at like 8 something! Argh! I woke up early for nothing! Oh yeah and then when we arrived the whole room was blue again! Like it was blue from floor to ceiling. And whats funny was that even the equipment and MOST OF THE UNIFORMS were blue. :L Pretty funny.Anyways I was paired up with Sim from year 11. She's Jocelyn's friend :L Cool huh ? Lol. We played so much that I think that I killed my legs. I seriously think I overworked them. Far out. When I got back they were full painful and then I fell asleep for like 2 hours. And then my legs weren't painful and then when I walked to my room it full hurt like so bad man. I think I killed it. T___T. And we have PDH tomorrow. I'm not going to look forward to it. Oh yeah! Anna WON THE REPROCHARGE. It was so cool! But Anna didn't want the award instead she wanted the medal. How funny. I just finished watching Australian Idol. Wow! Stan sings so good. I like it :LAnyways I have to go. Bye Bye From Maggie xxoo
8/24/2009 07:44:00 PMSunday, August 23, 2009
Yay! Kimmie is talking to me again! And she's coming to table tennis too! How awesome! But I still need to get a table tennis racket thing. I am so nervous about the table tennis competition it's not even funny. I don't even think I can sleep tonight. I'm going to have imsomnia. And what's worse is that I drank coffee in the morning. Don't you think its funny? Yesterday I drank coffee at 4 pm and my cousin is like man you're not going to be able to sleep and I seriously thought I wouldn't be able to sleep as well. Guess what ? At 11 I went to bed and 10 minutes later I fell asleep. :L And what's funny is that coke makes me stay awake when coffee doesn't. LMAOXaiver blocked meee. I think he's mad at me. He must hate me now. I feel like crying. I really didn't think he would get this mad. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have done that. I'm so mean now. Man I keep on forgetting to think about what I should say first and then say it. I always hurt people even when I don't mean it. I'm so mean. I don't know what to do anymore. Man whatever I do I hurt people. I shouldn't talk to anyone anymore. I swear I'm going to become my character in the story. Be all quiet and not talk to people. But it's going to be hard. But I'm going to have to stop hurting people so its for the best right ? Yeah!Anyways that's not what I'm going to talk about. At tutor guess who I saw ?! I saw Christina! Do you have any idea how long it's been since I've seen her ? It's been like forever! Anyways I don't feel like writing anymore so yeah. Bye Bye xxoo PS pray for me about the table tennis competition :D
8/23/2009 05:03:00 PMFriday, August 21, 2009
Hey there. Today is Friday and it was an alright day. I think Kimberley is angry at me about yesterday. Argh! I'm so mean! I made Kimberley cry again yesterday. I'm so annoyed with myself for that. I wish I didn't make her cry man. I think she's not going to forgive me in a long time. Dammit! Anyways, I'm not writing to complain about how a bad friend I've been. God knows, I hate myself for that. Anyways today I was planning on writing about my day. Well about Leos Club and stuff. Leos Club was fun. Me and Katrina and Julie signed up for the Taiwan Typhoon Donation which was awesome and me and Katrina signed up for Moon Fest. Awesome huh ?! Anyways I kind of signed up for too much stuff. I mean it's hard to say no when you know it's for a good cause right ? Funny huh ?And then after school I went to Cabramatta with Duong and Linda and Stephanie to Gloria Jeans. It was awesome. Linda had a private talk with me about God and stuff. She said that the Holy Spirit was in all of us and that's how she can sometimes tell how I feel. And you know how I'm with my friends I'm all loud and stuff and Linda notices that. She said that I am quiet around her and Duong and that she wanted me to come out of the cave. She asked me why and I guessed it made me remember. I remember how I was always closer to Jocelyn and Vicky rather than my own family. You know, how my mum goes to work and my dad went to work as well and because of the age difference with my siblings I couldn't really talk to them. Kind of funny huh ? So I guess until I get to know someone like REALLY get to know them then I just can be myself. And then Linda prayed for me. After she prayed for me I felt really light and kind of relieved or something. I don't know I just don't feel heavy. Count on God and the Holy Spirit to help me huh? After the bit at Gloria Jeans I went to my mum's shop and found out that I was going to Vietnam. NOOOOOO! I DONT WANT TO GOO! I'm going on the 25th of September. I DONT WANNA GOOO! I really want to stay here and go to Wendy's birthday and go to Moon Fest! Can you believe it ?! I have to go to Vietnam! I don't want to go there at all! But it's already too late because my mum already bought the tickets! Nooooo!And then I'm going to have to miss school. That's not good because I'm going to be behind and I don't want to be behind on my work. Yeah, can you believe it? I have a whole new light about work now. xDAnyways that's all about my day. xxoo
8/21/2009 06:51:00 PMSaturday, August 15, 2009
8/15/2009 08:57:00 PMMonday, July 27, 2009
This is something I honestly don't get. I know I am a by-stander and I honestly don't want to get involved in someone's argument unless I have to. But seriously... HOW ON EARTH DID BEST FRIENDS END UP ENEMIES ?! Where did they go wrong? I thought that one of my friends had honestly changed when I first met her in year 7. Guess I was wrong. She was mean and quite bitchy then and she still is now. Did that one person really change the relationship between two friends? Why do THAT person have to make it hard on MY BEST FRIEND. I mean she didn't do anything. Why on earth are you gaining up on her. Do you stupid people have no life or something? Or you can do is bitch about someone and you are satisfied?! I guess that's all you CAN do in society. I honestly hate people like you. And don't act like you don't know who you are. You guys make me sick to the core you know that?! I can't believe I was blinded by your lies. I can't believe that I honestly thought that you were good people. I guess now my eyes are clear and it goes to show how ugly your inner self is. I mean you guys spend a long time to do make-up to impress guys?! Is that all you have in YOUR BIG HEAD?! GUYS?! You seriously make me feel sick you know that?! I honest can't stand your way of thinking. Don't think that you superior than others because you have stuff that some people don't. I'm too tired of this. I can't stand you guys. I pray that you get your head cleared and that you stop thinking about guys and think about your life. Make amends with others and just stop acting like a bunch of sluts. Well thats all I can say about this incident. I like pondering about stuff that aren't really my business. And I'm sorry about putting my comment on someone. AND I HOPE NO ONE READS THIS CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE FIRE ANY BIGGERRR!Anyways on the 19th of July I went back to church after a really long absence. And to tell you the truth I didn't really want to go but I felt I had to. And I must say I'm honestly glad I did. Well when I first arrived I was nervous like REALLY nervous for a simple reason. There were too much people. I think I was so nervous I almost fainted. :L Well it's not really a laughing matter because I really almost did. Anyways I hung around Duong and Michael. I learnt some pretty interesting stuff like for example did you know that your memory is stored at the back of your head? I didn't know that until Michael told me. :L Anyways Duong and Linda noticed that something was wrong with me. Linda noticed that I had gone back into my shell. And Duong noticed that I was quite ashamed about my appearance. Well all that is true. When we were worshipping Duong had a picture for me. It was a rose that was in a glass container and there were vines covering the glass container trying to get to the rose. Duong explained to me that the rose was me and the glass container was God protecting me. The vines were the demons trying to get to me. After worship and group activities Linda approached me and told me about how she saw a shell. I don't really remember what Linda told me but I think it's about me hiding in my shell. She said that she saw how I was at school. You know me being all loud and stuff and she said that I should be like that when I'm at church. After all, at church we are all one family. I know that like I honestly do know that. I guess I just lost sight of that thought. And to tell you the truth I don't mind about there being alot of people. But I do mind when they all shine really brightly. They shine so bright that it makes me feel invisible. Do you get me? It's like its so bright that it makes you feel that your light is dull and not that bright. I don't know why I feel that way but I do. Well that's I wanted to say. So yeah. Thank you for reading this REALLY long entry. xD
7/27/2009 02:25:00 PMThursday, June 18, 2009
Wahh... It's June! And I haven't written to this blog in ages. :L Anyways ... I miss camp. Like I REALLY miss camp. I don't wanna be in school anymore. I don't want to be near civilisation for a while. Man, I really need the time and space to think. I need to get my act straight. I'm changing and I know I'm not changing in a good way. I'm trying my best but nothing seems to be working. Sometimes it makes me think why am I here? Why do I even bother trying? Trying to do this and do that. I just want to go wild and do something crazy. I just need something to get me away. I don't know what's wrong with me man. When I was at camp I was free, light and I was happy. And now with all the things, what with work, pressure, stress, issues I don't know anymore. I need the time and space to call God. Heck, I haven't even talked to him for like a long time. And it's getting annoying. And now I'm even avoiding home group. I don't think I even want to go to church anymore. And I feel that if I try calling God, its like... I will get no response at all. And it's true I don't get any response at all. I just wanna cry and get all the bad things out of my head. I just want them away from me. I'm so disgusting. I feel so weak. I don't know... Like at school I feel like I'm not being myself. It's like I'm laughing and all but I'm not. :/ Something is seriously wrong with me. Man I feel really heavy. And what, with people having problems I just don't know what to say to them. I don't know what to do. And I know I have alot of hatred in me and it's a bad thing. I'm really trying to change that. But sometimes you can't help but not like them. You know? Oh heck, what's the point of writing this all down man. So stupid. ><>
6/18/2009 10:01:00 PM
ending in tragedy...
12/06/2009 06:45:00 PM
ending in tragedy...
ending in tragedy...
ending in tragedy...
ending in tragedy...
ending in tragedy...
ending in tragedy...
Monday, August 24, 2009
Today was table tennis competition. It was so fun. You have no idea how many times I prayed to God about having the right uniform on and having fun. I full had to wake up like at 6:30. That means that I had 6 hours sleep. Anyways I arrived pretty early and guess what ? I was like the third one there. And wanna know something else ? We had to arrive at school at 7:30 and we left school at like 8 something! Argh! I woke up early for nothing! Oh yeah and then when we arrived the whole room was blue again! Like it was blue from floor to ceiling. And whats funny was that even the equipment and MOST OF THE UNIFORMS were blue. :L Pretty funny.Anyways I was paired up with Sim from year 11. She's Jocelyn's friend :L Cool huh ? Lol. We played so much that I think that I killed my legs. I seriously think I overworked them. Far out. When I got back they were full painful and then I fell asleep for like 2 hours. And then my legs weren't painful and then when I walked to my room it full hurt like so bad man. I think I killed it. T___T. And we have PDH tomorrow. I'm not going to look forward to it. Oh yeah! Anna WON THE REPROCHARGE. It was so cool! But Anna didn't want the award instead she wanted the medal. How funny. I just finished watching Australian Idol. Wow! Stan sings so good. I like it :LAnyways I have to go. Bye Bye From Maggie xxoo
8/24/2009 07:44:00 PMSunday, August 23, 2009
Yay! Kimmie is talking to me again! And she's coming to table tennis too! How awesome! But I still need to get a table tennis racket thing. I am so nervous about the table tennis competition it's not even funny. I don't even think I can sleep tonight. I'm going to have imsomnia. And what's worse is that I drank coffee in the morning. Don't you think its funny? Yesterday I drank coffee at 4 pm and my cousin is like man you're not going to be able to sleep and I seriously thought I wouldn't be able to sleep as well. Guess what ? At 11 I went to bed and 10 minutes later I fell asleep. :L And what's funny is that coke makes me stay awake when coffee doesn't. LMAOXaiver blocked meee. I think he's mad at me. He must hate me now. I feel like crying. I really didn't think he would get this mad. It's all my fault. I shouldn't have done that. I'm so mean now. Man I keep on forgetting to think about what I should say first and then say it. I always hurt people even when I don't mean it. I'm so mean. I don't know what to do anymore. Man whatever I do I hurt people. I shouldn't talk to anyone anymore. I swear I'm going to become my character in the story. Be all quiet and not talk to people. But it's going to be hard. But I'm going to have to stop hurting people so its for the best right ? Yeah!Anyways that's not what I'm going to talk about. At tutor guess who I saw ?! I saw Christina! Do you have any idea how long it's been since I've seen her ? It's been like forever! Anyways I don't feel like writing anymore so yeah. Bye Bye xxoo PS pray for me about the table tennis competition :D
8/23/2009 05:03:00 PMFriday, August 21, 2009
Hey there. Today is Friday and it was an alright day. I think Kimberley is angry at me about yesterday. Argh! I'm so mean! I made Kimberley cry again yesterday. I'm so annoyed with myself for that. I wish I didn't make her cry man. I think she's not going to forgive me in a long time. Dammit! Anyways, I'm not writing to complain about how a bad friend I've been. God knows, I hate myself for that. Anyways today I was planning on writing about my day. Well about Leos Club and stuff. Leos Club was fun. Me and Katrina and Julie signed up for the Taiwan Typhoon Donation which was awesome and me and Katrina signed up for Moon Fest. Awesome huh ?! Anyways I kind of signed up for too much stuff. I mean it's hard to say no when you know it's for a good cause right ? Funny huh ?And then after school I went to Cabramatta with Duong and Linda and Stephanie to Gloria Jeans. It was awesome. Linda had a private talk with me about God and stuff. She said that the Holy Spirit was in all of us and that's how she can sometimes tell how I feel. And you know how I'm with my friends I'm all loud and stuff and Linda notices that. She said that I am quiet around her and Duong and that she wanted me to come out of the cave. She asked me why and I guessed it made me remember. I remember how I was always closer to Jocelyn and Vicky rather than my own family. You know, how my mum goes to work and my dad went to work as well and because of the age difference with my siblings I couldn't really talk to them. Kind of funny huh ? So I guess until I get to know someone like REALLY get to know them then I just can be myself. And then Linda prayed for me. After she prayed for me I felt really light and kind of relieved or something. I don't know I just don't feel heavy. Count on God and the Holy Spirit to help me huh? After the bit at Gloria Jeans I went to my mum's shop and found out that I was going to Vietnam. NOOOOOO! I DONT WANT TO GOO! I'm going on the 25th of September. I DONT WANNA GOOO! I really want to stay here and go to Wendy's birthday and go to Moon Fest! Can you believe it ?! I have to go to Vietnam! I don't want to go there at all! But it's already too late because my mum already bought the tickets! Nooooo!And then I'm going to have to miss school. That's not good because I'm going to be behind and I don't want to be behind on my work. Yeah, can you believe it? I have a whole new light about work now. xDAnyways that's all about my day. xxoo
8/21/2009 06:51:00 PMSaturday, August 15, 2009
8/15/2009 08:57:00 PMMonday, July 27, 2009
This is something I honestly don't get. I know I am a by-stander and I honestly don't want to get involved in someone's argument unless I have to. But seriously... HOW ON EARTH DID BEST FRIENDS END UP ENEMIES ?! Where did they go wrong? I thought that one of my friends had honestly changed when I first met her in year 7. Guess I was wrong. She was mean and quite bitchy then and she still is now. Did that one person really change the relationship between two friends? Why do THAT person have to make it hard on MY BEST FRIEND. I mean she didn't do anything. Why on earth are you gaining up on her. Do you stupid people have no life or something? Or you can do is bitch about someone and you are satisfied?! I guess that's all you CAN do in society. I honestly hate people like you. And don't act like you don't know who you are. You guys make me sick to the core you know that?! I can't believe I was blinded by your lies. I can't believe that I honestly thought that you were good people. I guess now my eyes are clear and it goes to show how ugly your inner self is. I mean you guys spend a long time to do make-up to impress guys?! Is that all you have in YOUR BIG HEAD?! GUYS?! You seriously make me feel sick you know that?! I honest can't stand your way of thinking. Don't think that you superior than others because you have stuff that some people don't. I'm too tired of this. I can't stand you guys. I pray that you get your head cleared and that you stop thinking about guys and think about your life. Make amends with others and just stop acting like a bunch of sluts. Well thats all I can say about this incident. I like pondering about stuff that aren't really my business. And I'm sorry about putting my comment on someone. AND I HOPE NO ONE READS THIS CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE FIRE ANY BIGGERRR!Anyways on the 19th of July I went back to church after a really long absence. And to tell you the truth I didn't really want to go but I felt I had to. And I must say I'm honestly glad I did. Well when I first arrived I was nervous like REALLY nervous for a simple reason. There were too much people. I think I was so nervous I almost fainted. :L Well it's not really a laughing matter because I really almost did. Anyways I hung around Duong and Michael. I learnt some pretty interesting stuff like for example did you know that your memory is stored at the back of your head? I didn't know that until Michael told me. :L Anyways Duong and Linda noticed that something was wrong with me. Linda noticed that I had gone back into my shell. And Duong noticed that I was quite ashamed about my appearance. Well all that is true. When we were worshipping Duong had a picture for me. It was a rose that was in a glass container and there were vines covering the glass container trying to get to the rose. Duong explained to me that the rose was me and the glass container was God protecting me. The vines were the demons trying to get to me. After worship and group activities Linda approached me and told me about how she saw a shell. I don't really remember what Linda told me but I think it's about me hiding in my shell. She said that she saw how I was at school. You know me being all loud and stuff and she said that I should be like that when I'm at church. After all, at church we are all one family. I know that like I honestly do know that. I guess I just lost sight of that thought. And to tell you the truth I don't mind about there being alot of people. But I do mind when they all shine really brightly. They shine so bright that it makes me feel invisible. Do you get me? It's like its so bright that it makes you feel that your light is dull and not that bright. I don't know why I feel that way but I do. Well that's I wanted to say. So yeah. Thank you for reading this REALLY long entry. xD
7/27/2009 02:25:00 PMThursday, June 18, 2009
Wahh... It's June! And I haven't written to this blog in ages. :L Anyways ... I miss camp. Like I REALLY miss camp. I don't wanna be in school anymore. I don't want to be near civilisation for a while. Man, I really need the time and space to think. I need to get my act straight. I'm changing and I know I'm not changing in a good way. I'm trying my best but nothing seems to be working. Sometimes it makes me think why am I here? Why do I even bother trying? Trying to do this and do that. I just want to go wild and do something crazy. I just need something to get me away. I don't know what's wrong with me man. When I was at camp I was free, light and I was happy. And now with all the things, what with work, pressure, stress, issues I don't know anymore. I need the time and space to call God. Heck, I haven't even talked to him for like a long time. And it's getting annoying. And now I'm even avoiding home group. I don't think I even want to go to church anymore. And I feel that if I try calling God, its like... I will get no response at all. And it's true I don't get any response at all. I just wanna cry and get all the bad things out of my head. I just want them away from me. I'm so disgusting. I feel so weak. I don't know... Like at school I feel like I'm not being myself. It's like I'm laughing and all but I'm not. :/ Something is seriously wrong with me. Man I feel really heavy. And what, with people having problems I just don't know what to say to them. I don't know what to do. And I know I have alot of hatred in me and it's a bad thing. I'm really trying to change that. But sometimes you can't help but not like them. You know? Oh heck, what's the point of writing this all down man. So stupid. ><>
6/18/2009 10:01:00 PM