okay I decided one thing now and that is to not care about my own problems now because it makes me feel really selfish. And now I also realised is that I wanna make people laugh. Yeah. If I make people laugh that means I haven't changed. I don't wanna change. Changing into someone you don't want to be is scary. So if I make people happy I won't change right? I can't let a burden change me because that's just not right. That's my goal. To make people who are sad happy again. I think that was always my goal but I seem to have forgotten because of the Nicholas Teo incident. So right now, I'll just handle being with Nicholas Teo until he leaves my life and then be with the people who I want to be. If it makes Nicholas Teo happy then fine so be it. I don't really give a crap anymore. My life was over ever since it began. So I'm going to make sure I smile and act like nothing happened. Making people smile makes me happy so yeah. Even if it means making Nicholas Teo happy. I just want to make people happy so I know I haven't changed. God that makes me sound so selfish wanting people to be happy for my own sake. I really am a selfish person.... Welps thats the end of my blog for today.
you're my only one...
11/17/2008 08:22:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
okay I decided one thing now and that is to not care about my own problems now because it makes me feel really selfish. And now I also realised is that I wanna make people laugh. Yeah. If I make people laugh that means I haven't changed. I don't wanna change. Changing into someone you don't want to be is scary. So if I make people happy I won't change right? I can't let a burden change me because that's just not right. That's my goal. To make people who are sad happy again. I think that was always my goal but I seem to have forgotten because of the Nicholas Teo incident. So right now, I'll just handle being with Nicholas Teo until he leaves my life and then be with the people who I want to be. If it makes Nicholas Teo happy then fine so be it. I don't really give a crap anymore. My life was over ever since it began. So I'm going to make sure I smile and act like nothing happened. Making people smile makes me happy so yeah. Even if it means making Nicholas Teo happy. I just want to make people happy so I know I haven't changed. God that makes me sound so selfish wanting people to be happy for my own sake. I really am a selfish person.... Welps thats the end of my blog for today.
