Monday, July 27, 2009
This is something I honestly don't get. I know I am a by-stander and I honestly don't want to get involved in someone's argument unless I have to. But seriously... HOW ON EARTH DID BEST FRIENDS END UP ENEMIES ?! Where did they go wrong? I thought that one of my friends had honestly changed when I first met her in year 7. Guess I was wrong. She was mean and quite bitchy then and she still is now. Did that one person really change the relationship between two friends? Why do THAT person have to make it hard on MY BEST FRIEND. I mean she didn't do anything. Why on earth are you gaining up on her. Do you stupid people have no life or something? Or you can do is bitch about someone and you are satisfied?! I guess that's all you CAN do in society. I honestly hate people like you. And don't act like you don't know who you are. You guys make me sick to the core you know that?! I can't believe I was blinded by your lies. I can't believe that I honestly thought that you were good people. I guess now my eyes are clear and it goes to show how ugly your inner self is. I mean you guys spend a long time to do make-up to impress guys?! Is that all you have in YOUR BIG HEAD?! GUYS?! You seriously make me feel sick you know that?! I honest can't stand your way of thinking. Don't think that you superior than others because you have stuff that some people don't. I'm too tired of this. I can't stand you guys. I pray that you get your head cleared and that you stop thinking about guys and think about your life. Make amends with others and just stop acting like a bunch of sluts. Well thats all I can say about this incident. I like pondering about stuff that aren't really my business. And I'm sorry about putting my comment on someone. AND I HOPE NO ONE READS THIS CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE FIRE ANY BIGGERRR!
Anyways on the 19th of July I went back to church after a really long absence. And to tell you the truth I didn't really want to go but I felt I had to. And I must say I'm honestly glad I did. Well when I first arrived I was nervous like REALLY nervous for a simple reason. There were too much people. I think I was so nervous I almost fainted. :L Well it's not really a laughing matter because I really almost did. Anyways I hung around Duong and Michael. I learnt some pretty interesting stuff like for example did you know that your memory is stored at the back of your head? I didn't know that until Michael told me. :L Anyways Duong and Linda noticed that something was wrong with me. Linda noticed that I had gone back into my shell. And Duong noticed that I was quite ashamed about my appearance. Well all that is true. When we were worshipping Duong had a picture for me. It was a rose that was in a glass container and there were vines covering the glass container trying to get to the rose. Duong explained to me that the rose was me and the glass container was God protecting me. The vines were the demons trying to get to me. After worship and group activities Linda approached me and told me about how she saw a shell. I don't really remember what Linda told me but I think it's about me hiding in my shell. She said that she saw how I was at school. You know me being all loud and stuff and she said that I should be like that when I'm at church. After all, at church we are all one family. I know that like I honestly do know that. I guess I just lost sight of that thought. And to tell you the truth I don't mind about there being alot of people. But I do mind when they all shine really brightly. They shine so bright that it makes me feel invisible. Do you get me? It's like its so bright that it makes you feel that your light is dull and not that bright. I don't know why I feel that way but I do.
Well that's I wanted to say. So yeah. Thank you for reading this REALLY long entry. xD
